iheart-HIM

2006-08-18T22:04:00.000-07:00

CAUGHT ON BED! URKS!

2006-08-18T22:00:00.000-07:00

I`ve got balls ! hahah =x

2006-08-17T21:48:00.000-07:00

2006-08-17T05:30:00.000-07:00

When you love someone.
Do you expect something in return?
If no . .
Why do people say the word give up ?
I have like discussed this topic with many guys. Since i`m known to be sexist .
I always say . Guys say they love the girl , promise to always be there for them.
I know , no human will be there for anyone who isnt willing to give them smthg back. Then why do guys in the first place say they will love them forever? Wait forever? Be there till the end?
Isnt that till DEATH ?
Dont speak what you are not capable of.
Once they know the girl dont like them. Or cant give them what they want to shove them aside.
My meaning of love. Is loving the person unconditionally. Even the person doesnt react desirably you still love and care for the person from a side.
I am not saying i`ve seen this kinda love before.
Its just a perfect form of love.One where no human is capable of.
And besides, Humans are made selfish.

2006-08-17T02:07:00.000-07:00

I am sorry .
I dont know what to say .
I got so much thoughts running through my mind.
But . .
Sighs.
I am sorry.
You are perfect not me.
&& you will be xin fu ^^.
but you`ll always be a part of me.
i promise.

If i give my heart to you .
Will you promise to be trueee ?

Ask yourself:
Is it better to be cautious or risk it all ?

2006-08-15T22:03:00.000-07:00

Its so nerve wrecking and its killing me
>( !
I`m like studying my accts 24/7 but i`m still not confident about it.
I so totally regret for skipping lectures & tutorials.
Oh gosh.
Can you turn back the time so i will like pay my 10o% attention in class.
Sigh .
Accts , econs , stats, itab . .
This four bloody subject which i always pon .
I`m such a goner.
Next semester . . I`ll be a change girl.
Hopefully .

Khaliq ,
Do our parents need to sign report slip in poly ?
If my next exam i study even harder can i make it ?
Argh . .
Uncertainties ,
regrets ,
they suck big time !

2006-08-15T02:07:00.000-07:00

My Hp is cocked up .
No sms & calls.
Anybody wanna reach me . .
Erm . .
Good luck.
LOL <33
TC!
Btw , saw an advert.
There is a party in sentosa on sept 1.
WHO WANNA GO !!!
GO GO GO !!!
Amelia ?!?!?!?

2006-08-14T06:43:00.000-07:00

Was listening to the used-to-be OUR song .
&& i got so much thoughts running thru my mind.
Did he call you his cutie pie ?
Did he hold your hands tight and whisper into your ear i dont wanna let you go ?
Did he make heart shape( not exactly heart =x ) strawberry jam bread for you ?
Did he TRY folding hearts for you ?
Did he say you were beautiful?
Did he tell you he love the way you smell ?
Did he tell you he loved the way you hug him ?
Did he cook scallop porridge for you ?
Did he Piggy back you and walk down the esplanade ?
Did he carry you on his shoulders like a lil baby ?
Did he comb your hair and help tie a ponytail for you ?
Did you help him dye his hair ?
Wash his hair , dry his hair and comb his hair ?
Did he help you wash your hair, blow dry it and comb your hair?
Did he stroke your hair when he hugs you?
Did he walk under the stars with you ?
Did he say that youre his life?
Did he say youre his baby girl ?

Well ,
Althou its all over.
This memories we share.
Noone can take it away.
From me&him.

2006-08-14T05:57:00.001-07:00

2006-08-14T05:57:00.000-07:00

I was studyin . . =X

2006-08-13T20:53:00.000-07:00

I took this. Got more photos but must wait for caramel to send me =)

2006-08-13T20:50:00.003-07:00

2006-08-13T20:50:00.002-07:00

aww . . SunFlower =]

2006-08-13T20:50:00.001-07:00

2006-08-13T20:50:00.000-07:00

Choco says its his fav. 2 bao! Hahah

2006-08-13T20:49:00.001-07:00

YAYYS! pizza

2006-08-13T20:49:00.000-07:00

The fucked up bitch .

2006-08-13T20:48:00.001-07:00

bolly wood actor

2006-08-13T20:48:00.000-07:00

Flirting ar !!

2006-08-13T20:47:00.000-07:00

hahah =x. I edited it

2006-08-13T20:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday Morning was kinda screwed up becus i was wearing jeans.
So not used to it . && i was like fusing up . Sorry mei mei =]
Anyways , I had my pancake fr mac altho i cant finish but still yums.
After that went home to change && slp a lil =x .
Sad berry couldnt turn up thou , was hoping to see her.
Miss her lots lots >( !
Anyways , met choco first . . Went to the esplanade to study .
I learnt a lil about bad depts and depreciation . . && then . .
We started cam whoring !!! Tsk . Lols .
I was bored . . && we ended up shopping . -.-
Stupid choco . . hahah =x
Anyways , caramel was late . . Not 5 mins but 2 over hrs. When he arrived we went to pizza hut.
Had a really fun time there.
Crapping , cursing , taking more photos and more crapping . .
The pizza && chicken was the best man . The funny thing was tt when me and choco ate the chicken like 3 quarter ways and we found out we were suppose to pour the honey . Hahah . Still nice thou . =]
Then we went shopping . . to the Times bookstore . .
Where choco went HIGH . hahah =x
After tt went to this really beautiful place . The view and everything so romantic ((:
Took photos & then caramel left for a movie.
Choco and i talked lots. (:
Sis&bro .
Well , I hope everything turn out for the better for him.
He really love his baby and is a good guy .
CHEER UP BRO!!
As for me. What he said was so true . .
I`ve already let go . Just a thread pulling me back.
I need someone to cut it . .
Hahah =]
Anyways , Going to work with them .
10 dollars an hr can !! Hope can get the job.
The aftermath . . We didnt study -.- .
Okay . Back to studying . . ^^
Oh , Actually i think i`ll be really busy this hols.
I`ve got chalets , clubbing , maybe work .
Dating =x hahah .
&& more impt. I need to study.
Hahah .
People. Pls tag me when your hols officially start. Masam&Amelia.
Bel & Nuer . . If you all have spet hols?
&& xZHU . . When is your hol in sept .
Then i can plan smthg =)) !
Oh btw ,
Yesterday for the first time . Terr said some sense to me .
Hahah . .
As long as i`m happy . They will bless me & let me go .
Cant believe it . =X !
Masam lied to me . .
YOU ASS !!!!

I am happy.
Dry your tears with love .

2006-08-12T07:54:00.000-07:00

Endless Rain

I`m walking in the rain
yuku atenonaku
kisuzui dakaradanushi
karamizuku korino sawameki
koroshi zuzu gete samayo izumademo
Until i can forget your love

nemuriwa mayaku yohoniki routa
kokoro o shizukanitokazu
mai akaru
aio odorasete
furueru karada o kiokunobarani tsuzumu
I keep my love for you to myself

Endless rain,
Fall on my heart
kokoro no kisuni
Let me forget all of the hate,
all of the sadness.

"Days of joy,
days of sadness slowly pass me by
As I try to hold you,you are vanishing before me
You're just an illusion
When I'm awake,
My tears have dried in the sands of sleep
I'm a rose blooming in the desert

It's a dream,
I'm in love with you
madoromi dakizumete

I wake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over goeninaranai
kotoba okuri kaezudemo
takazukiru hi irono kabewa
zukisatta hino omoio
yumeni e tsuzu
Until I can forget your love

Endless rain,
Let me stay
Evermore in your heart
Let my heart take in your tears
Take in your memories

2006-08-12T04:07:00.001-07:00

2006-08-12T04:07:00.000-07:00

Like clubbing . hahah

2006-08-12T04:06:00.000-07:00

His words . . Aww

2006-08-11T23:28:00.000-07:00

Just came from down stairs.
Wanted to study with masam today but he have soccer . .
So i went tanning alone and study .
Hahah .
Happy i accomplish smthg . Tmr meeting choco and cameral to study.
Maybe berry and berry in law is coming. Hmmm . .
Watching dance fever . The judge jamie king . Omg so fucking hawt.
Pleasure to have same name as him . Ahahah !!
I`ll try to look for his pic . .
Yesterday was on the phone with siSta . He so damn funny.
Was telling him about stuffs .
&& he was shuai a not ? I said . . not really.
He said screw him then .
Hahah ! Sucha bitch .

Well .. I`ve been thinking what amelia sms.
Hmm . Ya so true. Thks babe. =] .
Hols are coming, I know everyone is looking forward to it.
But not me.
At least sch i can skip it and be with my friends.
Now everyone is attach. Tsk So difficult and sians . .
Nvm . . I still gt my good old masam . Hahah

2006-08-10T23:00:00.000-07:00

People keep tell me its his loss , But why do i feel its my loss too . . .

2006-08-10T22:54:00.000-07:00

I want . . .

2006-08-10T18:48:00.000-07:00

I`m tearing up my heart .
='(
Haiys . .
SIGHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>(((((!
Why cant i just fall in love with another person like how he has fallen in love with another one.
Why cant i just hold the hands of another like what he is doing.
Why cant i just feel so happy with another person like when he is with her .
Why cant i forget all the memories and love we had like he did.
Why can i just fucking bloody trust someone and fall in love once again .
Why cant i just break free . . .
What the fcuk is wrong with me ?
>( !

Thou you are always there . .
I just cant bring myself to . . .
sorry~

2006-08-10T06:32:00.000-07:00

I need to talk to someone . .
But ,
Who . . .

2006-08-09T09:42:00.000-07:00

I reached home at midnight agains.
Gosh. I so dont want to go out anymore. I`m so damn tired.
Watched my super ex gf today.
So damn funny . Hahah .
After tt went to some country club to eat . Wanted to see the fireworks but marilyn mother gave the wrong info.
Anyways, I was bombarded with gossips today . Hahah
From guys somemore. Tsk .
Then headed to chom chom.
&& i had 3 bodyguards , Shuan , varian and marvin escort me home. =X .
Hahah !
I was walked SO fucking much today.
I`m so damn damn tired. ='(
&& i`m going o ut tmr .
Sighs. . I needa study. I need sulaiman to teach me.
Argh . . >((!

Today . The ten of august .
Wonder if he remembers . .

2006-08-08T22:40:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAYY SPORE !!
((:
-
Went to sch for itab yesterday .
Hopefully can pass.
Then meet up with khaliq for lunch.
I had 69 for stats! Not bad right . .
But that stupid guy says he dissappointed in me.
TSK! Then went to the library and watched Boy and Girl.
Sweet show. Met ong later and went home. He was whining like a girl -.-
After that met bin . & i was like an hour late =x .
Watched ant bully and saw the fireworks.
So damn damn nice x)) . So much nicer then the one i saw with keith last yr.
The fire works had like fairy dust and heart shape.
Beautifffoool;
After that we went to the river. But somehow . .
It just led me to the past.
-
I AM SO PISSED WITH YOU LAHSS!!
WHATS YA PROB MAN.
TSK TSK TSK .
nanapok!

2006-08-08T21:14:00.000-07:00

2006-08-05T22:55:00.000-07:00

oh gosh . . .

2006-08-05T22:34:00.000-07:00

Whentherewasme&you.

It's funny when you find yourself
From looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
That miracles could happen
Because now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
My dream when I was sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled you made me feel
That I could sing no more
But then you went and changed the words
And now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used to bes
And once upon a songs

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams are meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe
That I could be so vine
It's like you were floating when I was falling
And i didnt mind
Because I like the view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you ='(

Why did you leave me falling alone.
With just one slap , you didnt even turn back .
I love it when it was me&you.

2006-08-04T05:39:00.000-07:00

Woah. I was late for sch again.
BUT .
Mr Ken kwan didnt come so NO SCH . Lols.
Yippeeesss .
Headed down to cine to catch the movie click.
Went with , berry , choco , cheeky , garfield , cockroach && i think thats all.
The movie was quite funny lahs. Abit touching also.
I had tears filled up in my eyes lah. But not worth the money =x
Oh ya. We took neos too.
Choco , berry & I had like alot of crazy shots. Hahah
Went to wisma after that to meet mei mei. Bought clothes.
Then met daddy and went to the restaurant for dimsum.
YAYYS. Super nice.
Then we went shopping. Hahah
Everybody bought something.
>) !
Daddy best lah. Buy the tops all so stylo. Hahah
Okay i`m like having a splitting headache.
TSK!
PS: FORGOT TO SAY .
I SAW A VERY VERY CUTE AND HANDSOME GUY TODAY.
OH GOSH. HIS EYES CAN MAKE YOU MELT.
SO CUTEEEE ,
THE POINT IS,
I TOLD DADDY AND HE WENT TO SAY OUT.
MY DAUGHTER THINKS YOUR CUTE!!!
OH GOSH , DADDY , LOL =X.

2006-08-02T20:11:00.000-07:00

i'm having the day from hell,
it was all going so well (before you came)
and you told me you needed space,
with a kiss on the side my face (not again)
and not to mention (the tears, ashame)
but i should have kicked your (ass instead)
i need intervention
attention to stop temptation to scream

cause baby
everything is fed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up
where do i start
cuz i can't turn to you when it all falls apart
no

don't know where i parked my car
don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
i put my faith in you
what a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
and not to mention (i drank too much)
i'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)

i need intervention
attention to stop temptation to scream

cause baby
everything is fed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up
where do i start
cuz i can't turn to you when it all falls apart
no

can it be easier?
can i just change my life?c
ause it just seems to go bad everytime
will i be mending?
another one ending once again

everything is fed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up (out)
where do i start
cuz i can't turn to you when it all falls apart
no (x2)
falls apart
gotta pick myself out cause things are mended

2006-08-02T19:37:00.000-07:00

Today is Mr charming`s birthday .
Happy eighteen birthday altho you wont get to see this.
Hahah
Going to his bbq later after my MOB test.
Hope i have many chicken and marshmallow. Hahah .
Hope i wont feel like . . Awkward with his friends thou.
-
Fling , flang , flung .
=))

2006-08-02T04:58:00.000-07:00

Never Let You Go

The rain, just never seems to bring the joy,
I feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part the hold
you left the mark all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark
Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying there is nothing left for me to do now,
but give in

If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you
I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and ya know, I'd never let you go

The way, you left me on the train I don't know what to say
I remember everything on that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance to share the sunset our one last romance
Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying there is nothing left for me to do now,
but give in

If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling I
would sing to you and tell you
I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
I'd never let you go

2006-08-02T04:01:00.000-07:00

Bloody sista wanna bomb me =(

2006-08-02T02:42:00.000-07:00

Today sch was crap (:
Heheh . Went to sch for like bout 2 hr.
Teacher went thru MOB . I am like well prepared for test tmr. =X
Anyways , went off with joanne like 11 to town. The feeling was cool .
We ate steamboat. yumms yumms!
Went shopping and had fun with her.
Heheh. We shop as if we have a bf -.-
Imaginating , shopping for HIM clothes. Hah
-.-
Got bored . .
Met masam after that .
Went to eat long john silver.
and now he is in front of me using comp. Hahah
We played bomber man. Fug i screeeam like mad .
oh ya. I cut my hair again.

2006-08-01T02:15:00.000-07:00

This is from my church bulletin. How true. Nu`er it is good for you (:
Enjoy !! ^^
To laugh, is to risk appearing a fool,
To weep, is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out to another, is to risk involvement,
To expose feelings, is to risk exposing your true self
To place your ideas and dreams before a crowd, is to risk their loss
To love, is to risk not being loved in return,
To hope, is to risk despair,
To try, is to risk to failure.
But risks must be taken; Because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing and?is nothing.
He may avoid suffering?and sorrow,
But he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or live.
Chained by his servitude he is a slave who has forfeited all freedom.
Only a person who risks, is free.
The pessimist complains about the wind;
The optimist expects it to change;
And the realists adjusts their sails.

Today went to sch , as usual late.
Felt damn productive during ITAB . ((:
There is test next week . Hopefully this time i can pass and score well.
Please please please. I dont wanna have a forward module.
Anyways , My bros were like super sweet
>) !!
Yesterday they called me and said wanted to meet me urgently but i cannot make it so today they brought a Big cuddly strawberry for me =] ( xZHU !! My looks more like a berry =p)
And they also got me a love charm, and hope that i find a love soon.
awww . . so sweet. Thanks guys ((:
Anyways, Felt feverish and had a splitting headache so skipped sch and went to see the doc.
Joanne accompanied me. Heh Suppose to be studying after that but . . .
We went shopping <3>(!

2006-07-30T19:38:00.000-07:00

2006-07-30T18:58:00.000-07:00

Had a dream yesterday. Of the bitch and the bastarf.
Sigh. Why is it back to haunt me again?
God, Pls make the blues go away. I dont want to be sucked into the blackhole again.
But in the dream. At least we went out -.-
Was listening to xZHU blog song. I think so relevant to me.
The things he is doing is the same. It is a retake of my life.
And she is the leading lady of his life.
It is all a repeat; Same script different cast .
She says she doesnt like him but . . -.-
I wish someone could have warn me about him .
Sighs.
But nevermind. Buddy told me something which was encouraging =]
&& besides God will make a way , when there seems to be no way . <3`

A leopard never changes his spots ((:
My horoscope : Perseverance is what you need to focus on now. So just keep on keeping on!

2006-07-30T05:19:00.000-07:00

awww . . .

2006-07-30T05:18:00.000-07:00

So fucking in love =x

2006-07-30T05:16:00.000-07:00

oh!! Chilli (:

2006-07-30T05:15:00.000-07:00

loves<3

2006-07-29T23:06:00.000-07:00

See this beautifoool boy ? A guy looks like him in my church !! =x

2006-07-29T22:31:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVER <3`

Yesterday was so fun .
Met xZHU in the afternoon and we went shopping.
Lols. Di siaos until like crazy.
Then went for her chalet.
Jeanie joined us later. Pity she had to leave so early.
Anyways, We went excape.
The haunted house!!! Hahah .
So scary cans. I screamed like mad.
&& i pull bel`s friend bag and shirt until very jialat.
Feel so sorry for him .
Hahah. Then sit all those roller coaster rides. yipppeeees !
Btw , Jeanie is scared !!! x=
And then went to see the ferris wheel.
Awww . . So romantic. <3` Me & QAD.
Thks to the soon kueh who helped us take photo.
And went back to the chalet.
Took so many crazy photos.
Bel , qad and I. I think manfred was amused by our retardedness.
Anyways, Hope qad enjoyed her time and was happy .
But with me is of course happy de lah . =x !

Laughs =DD !

Last night. It happened again .
Shucks.
Glad i went for church sessions today.
It was so damn . . . . Good.
>) !
Helped me a great deal.
Walking home & talking with amanda also kinda helped me.
Thank you jesus ((:

2006-07-28T02:07:00.000-07:00

Why have things become this way ?
I thought it would have been simple.
I wanted to be someone different to you.
To play a different role.
I know I know . But
I care I care.
I dont know if my decisions, my actions was wrong or right?
You mean lots to me too .
But .
Why . . .
I am scared that . .
But i dont want to be selfish .
Cause i know i wont be able to give you what you want.
I`ll just have to live with it.
If only you knew how i felt and what i`m thinking of.
I am sorry . .
-
8:41pm.

The rain begins to fall ,
You rob my rainbow in the sky.
&& i will catch you if you fall,
You never have to ask me why .
&& when the rain begins to fall,
I`ll be the sunshine in your life.
You know that we can have it all
and everything will be alright.

2006-07-26T19:25:00.000-07:00

Woke up early to study today .
Heh (: Just for the sake to complete my hmwrk to make myself free for xZHU on sat.
Took the mrt was so engrossed in my mp3 songs that i forgot to alight !
For the first time i thought i was early for sch but proved to be wrong =x .
After sch went to meet my dear girl.
Heh.
Why do people keep smsing me to remind me to go home early cus its ghost festival ?
I`m scared cans =/
LOL.
i love my nu er Jeanie ((:
PS: But not her smeeeeelly cuttlefish . =x
Thanks for the present
<3
-
9:59pm

Guys drinks to forget about the girl...
Girls drinks to think back about that guy..

When guys are in love, they becomepoorer
But when girls are in love, they becomeprettier

Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..

Guys care most about the quantity of love...
But girls care most about the quality of love..

Guys break-up when they feel love from another Girl...
Girls break-up when they feel
Separation from her man...

Guys feels curious towards all girls...
Girls feel curious towards the guys who
are Interested in her..

When guys are heartbroken, they try to
forget the girl by going out with other
girls...
When girls are heartbroken, they try tofind his Characteristics from other guys...

Guys wishes to be her first love....
And girls wishes to be his last love...

&& i wonder . .
How can 2 different sex come together and ever be one?
Hmm . . =)

2006-07-26T08:08:00.000-07:00

More roles are added to my life.

Confusion

or

Hope ?

Nevermind. As long as they are nice. (:

My heart beats so fast.
Its as if i know something will go wrong.
Sheesh

2006-07-26T01:07:00.000-07:00

I love JOANNE!
My blueberry (:
Super fun time with her today <33`.
I dont want to believe anyone.
Prevention is better than cure.

Hahah.
You are so fucking lame.
Youre facts are all wrong
=/ *
Idontcare

My horoscope:
Any obstacles that will appear now will really just be old fears popping up again

2006-07-25T02:54:00.000-07:00

I was studying and listening to some super sad chinese song.
Got me reminiscing about the past.
Was it fake or real ?
Was it just a play , a pack of lies?
I know its no use thinking but i feel so cheated.
Like how my gd friend feels about his ex gf.
Was it all just a game to them ?
&& my is of almost 2 years.
Feel like i got played. Haiys.
The thought of all the things i`ve done for him seems so wasted.
The love and time i`ve put in, vanished in the air.
The ending wasnt perfect either.
Its was. . Childish .
Now, everything is impossible. All black holes have been seen.
I see it so clearly .
Now everything is just HER.
Not that i want to be in her position
He chose someone who doesnt love him .
Love makes people stupid.
I am not sad but is like why .
A BIG FAT WHY .
Like i said.
I will never know the answers . . .
Can you imagine how pain it was.
When at that time when i still love him so much .
His nick was . .
Without your love i cannot live.
For her .
My friend.
Hmm . Now my mp3 plays a happy song.
So I AM FINE ALREADY =DDD !

Skipped Itab in the morning cus i couldnt wake up.
Shit lah .
I need to do well for the next itab test.
Khaliq knocked some sense into me. && i seriously need to study for ALL the tests, irregardless of percentage.
Study, jamie study !
Sch was fine lah.
Last ideas presentation todays.
YAYYS! My group did well. Thks to everyone ^^
I love photographs.
Those abstract kind i see that professionals take.
I wanna learn how to take too. So happy seeing the photos esp of friends , lovers and lil children.
Thinking of signing up for the programme.
Hope amelia can pei me.
Well, Got a lot of studying to do.
No time no time.

I DELETED IT CAUSE I CANNOT TAKE IT .
I BET SOMEMOREMISUNDERSTANDING CROPPED UP.
BUT F.

2006-07-23T18:02:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHALIQ !!!
YOU ARE EIGHTEENNNNN NOW.
ONLY ONE YR OLDER THAN ME HOR !
=p

2006-07-23T06:31:00.000-07:00

Ive got stats test tmr.
I am boos about it.
Anyways, been doing shopping since friday.
=]
Finally have my formal tee.
&& I LOVE MY FORMAL TEE !!!!!
lala~ =p
i know someone sure say FUCK YOU to me one. hahh =X.
Went to look for khaliq present but dont know what to choose.
Is tmr . . ARGH.
& i just read his blog. That nana nv sms me say wanna meet for lunch and i just read it. -.-
MR KHALIQ, I CALL YOU BUT YOU NV ANS.
So many things to do .
So lil time. I hate that feeling.
Anyways, i want to meet up with many many people.
Hols pls fasterly come !
I want to meet the stupid busy sam .
&& the suddenly so guai amelia.
the cutie bella.
my siSta masam, cus i said i`ll pei him shop.
the rebellious qad.
&& i`m meeting my nuer on weds ! YAYYS!
I`m gonna talk to much until she says,
MOMMY , SHUT UP!
lols
-

Oh.
I`m quite happy now.
Being independent. =)

2006-07-21T19:30:00.000-07:00

I`ve made up my mind.
I`m gonna be selfish.
I need to breathe.
Thks xZHU yesterday (:
&& your not a dustbin can.
Say until so low class.
Loves <3`

The same old songs keep playing in my head.
over & over again
I`ll be just fine.
Pretending i`m not.
I`m far from lonely and its all that i`ve got.

&& I am not waiting for his return.
I dont expect it to.
Hope it answers your qns.
-
BYE

2006-07-21T07:47:00.000-07:00

2006-07-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

mr pringles . Said by xZHU

2006-07-21T06:53:00.000-07:00

I`ll try to upload the video

2006-07-21T05:08:00.000-07:00

Went to meet masam after sch today.
Actually only wanted to get my pair of slippers but who knows we chat so much.
Thanks masam ! =]
Hahah.
&& the clothes were nice today !
I want to buy them all =(
Anyways, talked alot with him.
He says i`m too paranoid.
I should chill more.
Maybe
&& i saw my nuer too ! Hahah .
&& we screamed luh. and the mad QAD xZHU suddenly call me.
&& laugh laugh laugh cus she saw a monster. Lols. =x.

My heart is still heavy.
I have too many questions unanswered.
So many doubts in my mind.
No one to pour my heart out to.
And i know , I wont ever get my answers maybe i dont want to know anyway.
Lately, I am not what i used to be.
I think and think.
Too much for my own good.
I keep and keep.
Keep too much for my own good.
Maybe its just a new phase.
I just want to be ME.
I want to be more of me.
I dont know who i am recently.
I dont feel right , i dont feel okay .
But no , i dont want to talk .
Becus, i dont know anyways.
Just you&me.
Is it so hard to ask for?
I dont want and wish to believe.
My perfect sky is torn (:
iwishiknewwhatsinsideofme

2006-07-20T06:09:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday boii (:

2006-07-17T18:18:00.000-07:00

Cui Gong Chee Bye Song.
_l_

Great, i have 10 / 100 for itab.
>>(!!

2006-07-16T20:19:00.000-07:00

HELLO EVERYBODY (:
Yesterday was a very fun day.
Its ok for my two darl who cant make it . Dont feel bad yeahs.
Heheh. Those girls gave me a suprise.
A smashed cake =X && so sweet the balloons .
And julia . . Such a gd actor le ar. bluff me buy chocolate. Hahah
I`m happy i had the cake. Then i could make a birthday wish =)))
Dont tell people what i wish hor girls. Hope it will come true <3 .
Anyways. Took a lot of wacky photos.
Had a crazy time in j8 and watched pirates of carribean.
Very long show. Hahah
I think Capt jack sparrow share some similar characteristics as me. Hahah =x .
Then we chiong home to eat.
Dearest mummy prepared a spread (: At first thought cant finish but.
MY CREW MEMBERS did a great job. Esp bel . Hahah
I`ll promote you =x
Played card games. Wah we shout like mad. words cant express it lah
I`ll upload the phtos and videos then you all know what i mean. hahah
Anyway , Me & QAD won a lot of money =x
Lady luck was on my side.
NU`ER can bring you go shopping le . hahah
Wozhendehenkaixin . Thank you, all of you .

I wont be online for quite some time.
Really gonne be very busy.
Anyone wanna contact me call me k ?
Hope all of you will be fine and that all goes on smoothly .
Mwahs. Love everyone =)

2006-07-15T21:52:00.000-07:00

=]
=(
<3
< /3 *
-
BYE

2006-07-13T06:45:00.000-07:00

SSCCRREEEAMMMS !!!
I cant contain my excitement !!!
I just put down the phone with amelia. =x
&& went crazy with zhu .

I see you looking at me like i`m some kinda freak.
Why dont you do something !
=D!

2006-07-12T05:07:00.000-07:00

I just came home from ps.
Heh Another fun filled day with my beloved girls . <3`
Wanted to come home at first. But felt pretty bored.
So joanne and i waited in the library for grace they all to finish their project.
Then us , the aunty gang walked with them the uncle gang which only consists of nicholas today .
Haah .
Took a lot of crazy shots in the train =x
After that the 3 auties went for PASTA. Been so long since i went to pastamania after tt break up .
Yums~
Then we went shopping. && grace and i bought the same watch.
The 3 aunties bought the same slippers.
Haha . Yellow unites.
Super fun with them lah.
I love you all (:
Update the pics next time.

Super excited and worried bout weekend.

2006-07-10T19:01:00.000-07:00

Maybe i should just keep my mouth shut forever.
I hate this fucking feeling.
BITCH.

-

As we trudge along through the mud
And we tried to call it home
But we weren't alright, not at all
Not for one second
Never have been one to write it down
Now I think I can
know I'm stronger now
Who's looking south
Not me I'm not looking back

I'm done denying the truth to anyone
Cause I'm alive
You showed me how
You seemed to find a hole
But I just laughed and smiled
Begged and rolled my eyes
Even cried and
Denied the truth to you
Just like the truth to me
Mostly lied

I'm not going to look back
White it out like glittering wax butterflies

2006-07-09T18:43:00.000-07:00

My daughter has gone to sch today =x.
The first day of sch . Heheh
How is it dear ?
Mommy was actually hiding behind the door peeking at you lehs .
=)
Hope your friends are really nice <3`

2006-07-08T23:25:00.000-07:00

Decided to update =)
There is econs test tmr. Damn.
Dont have a gd feeling about it >(~ !
Anyways, my textbook is found ! Praise the lord =]
Spooky where i ended up in.
Yesterday my dearest bestie came to look for me . Suppose to the study but that girl so distracting lah.
We caught up && went swimming x) . OMG!
So many things happened at the pool . Firstly there was this 2 girls who were wearing flowery swimming costumes =x.
Bel~ They wore the kind you always wanted =x
&& the fat girl cannot keep her legs close ! Its was fwarking gross luhs. * ( Look below for the photo =x )
&& there was this guy , at first he was like standing near us then he just smile.
Then amelia keep whispering to me but i cant figure out what he was saying.
Then she was like turn to your right.
Then i turned and guess what , THE GUY`S DICK WAS OUT OF HIS TRUNKS . amelia said his balls too.
ZOMG. Why am i so sway. Always seeing such stuff -.- !
Then super paiseh. hahah
After that in the night went to a concert for papa`s function.
There were hip hop lah. And this grp of guys were break dancing. Uber coolness.
Khaliq~ You should have come with me =X !
The minister`s were there. Dick lee blah blah. && Iskandar smiled at me. Hahah
Julia was jealous =P .

Anyways, today i finally joined a church group.
Youth vineyard.
Nice people.
Thanks.
-

2006-07-08T23:22:00.001-07:00

girl who cant close her legs =x

2006-07-08T23:22:00.000-07:00

THIS IS WHAT I CALL SISTERS ^^

2006-07-08T23:21:00.000-07:00

2006-07-08T23:20:00.000-07:00

Thanks for that day x)

2006-07-05T06:58:00.000-07:00

Dont say you love me.

SOME ASS STOLE MY TEXTBOOK .
Omg. Pervert.
Pls return me my textbook. i desperately need it.
Thanks =( !
_l_
Went to cityhall after sch to look for joanne`s slippers but to no avail as her legs are so small.
Just like amelia`s. -.-
So went to bugis.
Did pedi. That joanne accidentally stepped on my toe in the mrt and i`m going back for touch up tmr.
I wanna change my blog song.
It sounds so depressing .
But dont know what to put.
-

2006-07-03T04:37:00.000-07:00

I woke up with a shocking no of sms today .
Funny how i slept thru all of it =X .
Anyways , went to sch early for fucking IDEAS again. & i was late =x.
I saw my baby bel. Looking as cute as ever =]
But something happened today. HEHEH =DD !
Anyways, Skipped Ec. Wanted to go for pedicure but there wasnt enough time becus joanne`s and my bag is with Grace.
Blah3 .
I think i did something bad today. Gosh! So uncomfortable now.
!@#@$!@#@!
There is ITAB test tmr. I`m going to die >( !
&& IDEAS presentation. Hope i dont get screwed by tt pms faggot.
Why is it that no one is there when i need them =((.

You are fucking childish lah.
ASS.

2006-07-02T08:04:00.001-07:00

MOKOMICHI

2006-07-02T08:04:00.000-07:00

* smiles cheekily =x

2006-07-02T08:00:00.002-07:00

2006-07-02T08:00:00.001-07:00

Her body ! O my

2006-07-02T08:00:00.000-07:00

2006-07-02T07:59:00.000-07:00

KODAKUMI

2006-07-02T01:47:00.000-07:00

Edited:
I was so wrong ! They are not boring at all.
Had fun talking to them and the food was great .
Laugh until my jaw really ached.
Anyways when i was going to bath i caught a glimpse of the show my sister was watching and it was so sweet !
The guy brought this girl to this place and had heart shape candles and then made a heart shape out of it.
Then he was like " Actually i want to ask anyother girl on the streets for dinner but since you free so i call you "
Then the girl was like 'okay then , i`m not free. ' When she was about to walk away the guy hold her hand lah And behind was the cute bouquet of flowers and then he said " THE PERFECT ROSES FOR THE PERFECT GIRL "
OMG~ How sweet. But too bad no heart shape balloons. I love them =x .
But if i am her like very pai seh leh . .
Hahah. =x.
Saw my friend nick ,
A broken heart is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than to hurt yourself trying to fix it.
So true.

Okay. I was watching MTV JAPAN AWARDS and the people are hot man.
This girl Koda Kumi. She is so damn sexy and hot. I love her hair. Her body.
BUT , she not very pretty lah.
The guy , mikomichi . He is handsome.
Like drooling handsome =x .
<3`.
-
10:50pm

woke up missing me =x .
Anyways, Went to church in the morning and had mac with julia.
After tt we went to the park at our house and played with the swing (:
So fun. && we were chatting away.
Heheh. We made a promise to let it all out there .
Becus i was like swinging and i started going mad.
I was shouting out loud " YOU JERK. PIECE OF RUBBISH SHIT ! YOU SHOULD BE BALD ALL YOUR LIFE AND FULL WITH PIMPLES." && i started laughing hysterically .
My sister was like -.- . But said hope you felt better. ^^
Hahahah. I dont mean all the things i said lah just wanted to shout out, loud !
Suppose to study lah but no fcuking mood.
I`m so sleepy and restless. FUG.
I have itac test on tues lo . Stress~
The irish women coming to my house tonight. Going to entertain them soon >( ! So boring.

So long since i typed things fr my heart.
It is better for me not to hear things.
It doesnt make a difference anyways. We are two separate items.
Knowing doesnt make a difference.
So if anyone knows anything about that RUBBISH pls do not tell me. ( I dont know if i`m really saying the truth =x )
My life is like so NEW now.
The past was so vague and blur. Like i dont know whats true and whats not. So disillusioned.
Quite sad that it should end so ugly. But i still believe that what we had was real but slowly everything just faded.
I dont blame anyone becus we are still young.
I was like going to sch with a mrt full of office ppl and i looked at them.
OMG~ why did i ever think i will marry keith. My life still have a long way to go. I`ll grow up , work become more like a woman.Meet new people.
LOLS~ YOUNG.
But anyhows, i am not looking back. I`ll take it as a lesson and that MAYBE it was just a mistake =]
I still believe i will fall in love again . && this time with someone who will treasure me x) .
Got to know this really cute guy =x .
He is so romantic and stuff.
Heh
-
Amelia . Do you wanna know more =P !

2006-07-02T00:28:00.000-07:00

2006-07-01T06:40:00.000-07:00

Woke up damn tired today becus i was on the phone with xZHU the whole night till morning.
Hahah .
We never run out of things to gossip =x .
Anyways, I thought i was going to be late so i cabbed down to tm.
&& the supposedly late queen , Jeanie was the first to arrive.
Hahah ! It was only me and her so we walked around first.
Took photos. (:
Then xZHU called and we went to meet her.
Ate at pastamania and chatted hell lots. And i really mean LOTS.
Then walk to century square and chat again. Wonder how come we have so much to talk.
Hahah . Really had fun with them and sharing information. =D !
Love them hell lots. && they were so pretty , make me feel so zi bei when i`m with them. >( .
Gosh~ Amelia , i think you spread ya sickness to me.
Met adrian after that and he keep on pissing me off =X .
Anyways, Thanks .
6 months and everything will be settled. ^^ !
Hope you win the bet hor .

I guess i was too harsh .
Sorry ~

2006-06-30T06:00:00.000-07:00

ANNOUNCEMENT :
This is to allow all those uncontactable ppl to look at this notice.
Hahah.
There will be a ladies night on the 16 of july . Just the close friends. :D
The Bestest darls ((:
- Samantha
-Amelia
-Jeanie
-xZHU
-Bel
-Masam ( siSta )
-Kiki
-Julia
&& ME.
Considering to add one more but must ask Jeanie bout it tmrw.
Until further notice this is it.
Heheh . I`m super excited. =)
Ps: Masam , you better be happy youre invited becus youre a guy but i treat you like a girl! So feel lucky ! =P.
&& sorry to all those ppl i hurt a bout the post. Heh . You all do mean a lot to me too =) Just tt i thought you all are like to busy to care. <3.
-
10:55pm

Today , my sch had flea market.
I bought shoe , handbag and a dress.
=]
I enjoyed going home with my dba 25 friends today.
They nv fail to make me laugh.
Thank yyou <3. size="5">MY BDAE IS OFF .
>(
Wanna book me , QUICK . hahah =x

2006-06-29T06:43:00.000-07:00

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO TALK TO JEANIE.

2006-06-28T05:38:00.000-07:00

Sch was okay today.
Joanne , Grace & I went mad.
Hahah. We were playing with ants -.-
But damn fun lahs we went mad all the way until after sch.
had an impromtu decision and headed down to bugis to watch Just my luck (:
So fun =DD !
Took neos together . It costs 11 bucks . More exp than other places.
Okay its just one dollar but the prob is the machine is spoilt!
The pen was haywire. Fug man~
The movie was funny lahs. Not bad.
Headed down back to sch for cscc meeting.
Was 30 mins late =X .
Nvm~ Got Nice free food.
I like (: YUMMS.
I saw that cute guy thrice.
Heheh .
Amelia says means got fate le =] .
Anyways , i was thinking as I was travelling home from sch alone today .
GUYS-
I know many girls love handsome guys but not all are suitable.
Some are like shuai but cant dress properly.
Some shuai but damn dao so like a level too high .
Is like . . i think it doesnt matter if a guy is very handsome.
If youre average looking and you dress really well- magic happens (:
I mean my class use to have this nerd.
But after sch hols all of us cant recognise him!
He becam tan , mascular , changed his hairstyle & did away with his specs.
Heheh .
So . . The phrase " Shi shang mei you chou nu ren , zhi you lan nu ren " applies to guys too.
Hahah
-
Idontwannafeelthiswaylahhhhhhhh ! _l_

2006-06-27T03:53:00.000-07:00

edited:
I am like so relieved now.
=DDD.
Me and my stupid brain whole day anyhow think. =x .
Anyways , today Ideas was crappy.
I am damn scared of next week presentation . Scared he flare up on me becus i skipped his lessons and he rmbs me.
I got the right to skip at least one lesson right -.-
&& he is making me sing solo in front of the class.
WTF .
I`ve chosen the song fuck you right back =X.
BASTARF.
Was talking to sam.
I feel so happy for her lahhs. :))
After so long , he finally came back.
But i also hope she makes a deicision and the BEST decision with the minimum amount of hurt. (:
I`ll pray for you dear girl.
I was thinking. I`m so envious of her situation.
If i`m her i`ll be so freaking confuse.
BUT
I wont ever be in her situation.
Becus he likes her. Fullstop x).
&& besides. Once a fucker always a fucker.
=]
So nice talking in msn today .
Hahaha. My weekends are burned.
Fri i`m going to skip cca so i can go hang out with kiki , masam , ame and hopefully sam so can catch up.
Then sat , Nu`er && QAD .
Sunday with Joanne & grace - We are going for movie and then chinatown . Heheh .
Exciting and busy.

Okay, all my friends , i hope all are doing well for you all.
Just becus i dont msg you all doesnt mean i dont miss you all. =]
I`ll always be there for all my beloved darl friends <3. ( Esp girls =x )
-
9:33pm

I am so damn tired.
Hais. I feel so down now luh.
I wish i`m thinking too much.
I hope i`m being too over sensitive.
Sighs.

2006-06-26T06:23:00.000-07:00

I am like so pissed off with friendster right now.
Whats wrong with that damn thing.
O my god.
Anyways, first day of sch was great =]
Met with my lovely classmates again. Heh
tmr is 8 to 5. Sick man.
Went for cscc briefing today at 5:30.
Suppose to have camp but ame and i not going cus of my bdae party.
Haiya , i`m so cranky now i`ve got nth to say.
BYE !
-

YOURE . . . . =DD.

2006-06-24T08:18:00.000-07:00

THATS YOUR PROB.
I DONT GIVE A FUCK.
IT DOESNT MATTER.
SO JUST LEAVE -.-
youdontknowme notevenaslightestbit.

2006-06-24T07:15:00.001-07:00

FUCKING PIG~

2006-06-24T07:15:00.000-07:00

secret garden

2006-06-24T07:14:00.003-07:00

pandan everywhere!

2006-06-24T07:14:00.002-07:00

=D !

2006-06-24T07:14:00.001-07:00

coffee beans

2006-06-24T07:14:00.000-07:00

Check me out

2006-06-24T07:13:00.002-07:00

dad`s friend son. pri 5 so tall!

2006-06-24T07:13:00.001-07:00

a WELL .